I kind of wanted to write down a few thoughts about how ramadan went for me, but never found the time to do so. Now it is, then.
I stuck to it for two weeks – so about half of the 28 days. Then I had to stop.
I only did two full ramadan days during that time, meaning that I did not eat and drink from sun up to sun down. I realised I could not deal with the lack of water – it was making me sick. So I started what I called the kid’s ramadan regime: I would eat a normal breakfast after getting up, and drink water and herb tea during the day, then have a fast-break meal after sundown.
But even so, it was very very hard for me, and I didn’t really cope well. I was fine during the first half or so of the day. But from about 3 or 4pm on, I was just so out of energy that I could not really think clearly. All I wanted to do was sleep, and maybe do useless things like browse the internet, but I even had troubles concentrating on that.
Of course besides feeling not too great that meant firstly that my days were super duper unproductive, and secondly, it wasn’t clearing my mind for spiritual practise at all as I had hoped.
So I realised the fast was completely beside the point, and after two weeks I decided to call it quits.
I would still like to try spiritual fasting again, but next time I would probably try and do it within a dedicated setting, like a retreat, where there is support and guidance, and a spiritual structure so I don’t have to spend energy on these things too much.
I’m glad and grateful to have had this small inside into islamic culture though.